Karencys

Read details at www.mysunshinekayden.blogspot.com

i might need to open a new blog as my old one used up all the space for photos (:

lastly, i had a great time with kayden & hubby. i love my family ^^

My baby boy has grown up so much. from the day he born, he only knows how to drink milk and sleep. until now, he learn to crawl, sit down, grab things and even laugh out loud. i am really looking forward the day he call me mama. and even next time there are classmates laugh at him that he has no father, i will tell him baby, it's okay at least you have mama. i will give you whatever i can give you. you need not worry about anything, just enjoy your childhood (=

it have been almost 8 months since i look after kayden by myself le. no matter rains or shine, i am beside him. i love him as much as i love my husband. but now i choose to give up one, the one that hurts me. i feel safe when kayden is beside me. although he is very naughty sometimes, but he is still my son. i want to protect him. i want to have him by my side. i just love him.

without a man indeed i don't know how to live. but without kayden, i will die. i kept on thinking about the past. the beautiful things that happen last time. i cry myself to sleep every night. but saying so much now doesn't make a difference. from now, i will devote all my time to my dearest son.

it's so clear that he has given up on me. it's time to move on. time to get rid of all the sadness and pains that i am suffering now. it's never easy. i have so much to say but suddenly i don't have the mood to do so. i feel so sick. not physically but mentally. i wish that i can go through this. god bless me.

Regardless of what reason, i changed my main blog url. it's still in public but i am not giving anyone my new address. i choose what i want to do & what i need to do. i need to put down everything that i have in order to live a better life. i have no friends only kayden. i am engaged but waiting for divorce. i have family and i am a burden to them. i wants to have a better environment for kayden to grow up yet i don't have the ability to do so. i am now a single mom. soon a study mom, and few years later working mom. now i enjoy being stay at home mom. i love it and i am enjoying it. i always remind myself to be kind to myself, don't live my live to remember a person that don't need me. i am trying so hard to give him up. i want a new life. i know said is always easier than doing. i always say to find a better guy and daddy for kayden but deep down i don't know where to find it. life is miserable if you keep thinking about the past. moving forward isn't easy but still have to carry on. this is just life. i love you kayden, you'll always have mommy beside you (:

What will happen to us when you go ns? Will you abandon me or quarrel with me? What am i going to do without you by my side? i am so confused. I don't wanna think about it but i can't. I hope you don't have to serve ns but it's impossible. my heart is numb & pain. my memory keep flashing back to the start where we first met. And my soul is locked inside your heart. I don't know what else can i do. though i am not physically doing the hard work but i am emotionally feeling the pain. Will you miss me? Will you still love me? Will we go through this? i wish for the better...

Newborn

1st month

Look starts to change

1 month plus knew how to suck pacifier

2nd month, 2/3/10

start to smile

know how to sit

go gaigai

start to hold things

Kayden & mummy

Potty

Eating hand

Smile even more :D

to be continue... (:

Yesterday went out with hubby to orchard for my cny clothes. went to fareast and bought a dress, a belt, 2 t-shirts, 1 shorts, 1 top. Total i spend around $250 including reborning. And i wasn't satisfied with the result of my hair. After shop also went for my job briefing than headed back to woodlands for reborning and treatment. also bought 1 hair conditional from there. Hubby helped me to carry my bags, treat me eat, wait almost 3 hours for my hair. than we cab back to his house and eat our dinner. Oh ya, we also went to Wisma for the Dim Sum again. it's nice but expensive. We went to Burberry and saw a bag that looks super nice ! It cost $995, i know one day i must earn and get the bag. daydreaming~ hahas.

i know hubby really treat me very good when he is nice. but when we quarrel, things really get so sucks that i often think that divorce can solve it. the problem still exist. i don't know what will happen in the next few days and i really pray that everything will go smoothly for me. i really don't wish to carry on my life so sadly. i love kayden and hubby.

Hubby & me slept at 7am today. This few days we're just repeating doing the same stuff like watching drama & playing games.

My computer is fixed. Hubby helped me :D yesterday night, we went out together with my sister & her bf.

My sister's bf drove us to Japanese Garden for the event to see shooting star. They said the peak is at 5am.

We went there around 2 plus. so decided to buy Mac while waiting. Sister & her bf went to buy, Hubby & me watch movie there.

There's lots of people ! and the car park is so dark. waited quite long & i only manage to saw two short continuous one.

but i am so happy lur. because it's the first time i saw it with hubby. i think it's romantic though the waiting time is longer than seeing the shooting star time. but at least we enjoyed :)

Kayden baby kicks me the whole night. only after eating he behaves inside. I guess he also want to see ? hahas

after that all of us went home except my sister boyfriend he went back to camp. I just woke up & now i am blogging here =)

So hungryyyy & i am waiting for hubby to wake up. the thunder was loud .

Labels: Will we have another chance to see shooting stat again?

Last two nights had been staying at hubby house. Was slacking, eating, watching tv, playing games & sleep together.

Yesterday my mum bring me to see doctor for my leg. tomorrow should be okay le (=

after that meet hubby to collect my dress & eat Mos burger for dinner. Than headed to his house.

Nothing much happen just glad that when i open my eyes in the morning, he's the first one i saw :D

& now i am back to my own house. just ate some cake & buns. will blog again :)

Labels: Happy moments please stay with me longer

2 November 2009, i officially became Mr Tiew Yehui's wife. First of all, i want to say thank you to all who came for my Rom.

And also specially thanks to my mother in law for helping us so much. I'll always remember it in my heart (=

Hubby & me woke up at 10am to prepare. reach the auntie house at around 11am to make hair & make up.

We were done at around 1.30pm and we were late. Sorry guys keep you waiting !

Reach there and soon the ceremony starts. We vowed & exchange rings. Our friends and family are there to witness.

We took lots of photo there. And after the thing, we went seperate ways.

Thanks to Karen Huang for coming yesterday, she skip school and represent IQA to give me the presents.

I am actually wearing the thing that you bought oversea (= and i really love the present alot. Thanks for the angbao and wishes from you guys.

Also thanks to Amanda & Jesslyn for coming so early and the lovely present as well.

when i reach home, i immediately used it and it's now at my hubby house (: we love it !

By the way, IQA gave me a card with all the wishes inside & an angbao . Amanda & Jesslyn gave me a holder to put marriage certificate inside (=

And also mother in law & hubby's cousin gave us an angbao also :D I am really happy.

After the thing, i went to hubby's house. took cab as it's raining. went back home and eat a little bit of cake & bread.

Than around 7pm, we went to causeway level 3 soup restaurant to have our dinner. none of my family came.

Big thanks to it for throwing my face away uh !* we still enjoyed our meal with hubby's family.

After eating, we went to the washing clothes shop and dry wash my dress. cost me $19.60 !

Than we also went to swensen for our dessert ice-cream. yummy ! ~

Hubby & me catch a movie called "Halloween 2" with 2 of his friends. well, not really scary but disgusting !

M18 show and as Hubby & me didn't watch Halloween 1 we were blur of the story lines.

after the movie, he sent me home & off to join his friends for drinking session.

both of us slept at around 3am. was too happy for it i guess ! Weees ~~

Just now we went to woodgrove and collect our photos from the auntie (help us make-up & style hair)

she volunteered to take photo for us free of charge and even burn a cd for us. total we had 213 photos !

and now i'm uploading to my facebook. so please go to my facebook for the pictures (: i wont be uploading here or maybe a few?

hahaas. hubby now sleeping soundly.. later gonna wake him up after i uploaded.

Time for sweet message to Hubby :

We were together for 1 year 8 months 1 week and finally we get married yesterday.

i hope it will be a new start for both of us. less quarrel, more love & merrier.

I love you and i enjoyed yesterday. hope you too.

Labels: Happily Married